I hadn’t been to Buvette in some time. I missed it. And while I got a chance to go today, it was a bit rushed (I had an appointment) and my mind was elsewhere (thinking of a problem I can’t seem to solve). So, ultimately it wasn’t all that enjoyable.
I don’t know where or when it happened, but I can’t relax anymore. I can’t just “be”. I used to be able to do that all the time. Something changed though. I’m not sure what, but I’m constantly on edge or tense or feel I’m rushing (which is why I’ve missed a few days of writing). It’s a terrible feeling to have and I was sad I had it this morning at one of my favorite, calming places in the world.
Not a good sign.
Here’s to hoping I shake it.